I actually briefly considered a blog shutdown, but I soon realized that's a really dumb idea. However, I'm in dire need of a new computer before I really do anything. This thing is slow, makes weird noises, etc. My car is the same way, actually. So are all my devices that I use to play music with. Except my Sony portable CD player. That thing fucking rules. I've had it since I was 12. And it works amazingly. :)

ANYWAY. One thing I need is a layout change, for real. Just something different. I have to change things up. But I get blocked. Not cockblocked though. My creativity is lacking at the moment. I might get a domain and all that. But after I get a laptop and a new car (HAHAHAHAHAHA YEAH RIGHT) you know, I might not have enough money left. I'd like to add that public transportation 'round here is the shit. I'd love to ditch the car thing, but that's not so easy to do in suburban hell.

I've had a sort of off-and-on depression for awhile now. Sometimes, yes, it is the deep-sadness-from-hell type, but other days it's the I'm-tired-I-can't-be-arsed-to-do-anything kind, or the complete-and-total-inability-to-handle-even-small-stresses type. I've read from 40000 different sources that celiac disease/gluten sensitivity can contribute to a) depression and b) b12 deficiency (ding ding!). And it's just now that I'm really considering dropping the gluten. This won't be easy because gluten is in everything. Except potatoes. Mmmm, potatoes. There are certain diets that forbid them. Dude, that's sadistic. Anyway, hopefully it'll at least make me feel a little better.

My world is really crazy and wacky right now. You should see my room. It's a disaster area. It reflects how my head is right now. And I have no motivation to clean it. Maybe do one little thing a day. Maybe the clean room will help clean my mind? And then the lack of gluten will add to that goodness? Isn't this the best post you've ever read?